I don't believe

I'm getting increasingly frustrated!

I don't believe in the God I have faith in.

I have faith in a God who heals, yet I don't believe he'll do it.

I have faith in a God who can use me, yet I don't believe he'll do it.

I've heard stories of churches in foreign lands where the people believe in a child-like manner. What is said in the Bible is true, therefore it applies to them. Churches where all new believers are healed of vision problems and no longer need their glasses. Yet in the UK, wearing glasses is seen as normal so we don't even think to ask God for healing of our eyesight. Our expectations about what is normal in life outweighs our expectations of what God can do for us. There are churches where there has been healing of tooth cavities! We have dentists to fill our teeth so we don't expect God to heal our dental problems.

I'm aching! But it's just my age. My eyesight is getting worse each year, but it's just my age.

I have friends suffering from severe migraines. Nothing has cured them. They're even having to try medication which has not yet been accepted in the UK! Is this what God wants? For us to be guinea pigs for a cure? We accept our ailments. We pray that God will heal us, but in reality we don't really believe he will.

I want to believe in the God I have faith in!

I want to KNOW my God, to experience him in my life and to let others see how amazing, loving and miraculous he is!